6. The Search for a Method
Having identified that you had a spiritual vocation, what did you do then?
I read a lot. I found that there was a huge amount of literature on the subject. I enjoyed being inspired by the words and wisdom that I could obtain that way. But it didnt take long for me to feel that I was merely engaging in mental gymnastics. It wasnt enough for me because the knowledge wasnt descending from my mind into my whole body, into my life. I wanted to make my way of being into something that was consistent with what I understood.
So I started looking for assistance on how to do this, because I couldnt find a practical way to do it in any book. I scoured the bulletin boards at New York University, where I was then in my second year of law school, and the New School for Social Research, which was nearby in Greenwich Village. I noted a number of groups that had posted flyers offering what might be what I needed, and I checked into a few of them. None of them felt quite right to me.
Then, a few months later, when I wasnt thinking about the subject very much, I opened up my desk drawer and found a number I had written down from one of the flyers that I hadnt yet followed through on. I called and made arrangements to meet with someone who was in Cafh. I developed a sense of connection and signed up for a meditation workshop they were offering. The tools I learned in that workshop and the experience I had there showed me that there was indeed a practical way of getting the mental ideas to be transformed into reality.
I entered Cafh in the fall of 1974.